Whoa. Almost over. Bummer. Not as productive as I would have preferred, but very relaxing, just the same. I've been trying to find my "center" again, but I don't know that it will ever be the same as it once was.
I think I'm coming to the realization that my parents have been my center all of my life, and now that Mom is declining and Dad is lonely, I have to find a new "center" - the place where I go in my mind to find peace and motivation.
These two things are must-haves in my world, and they are eluding me this year. Just when I think I've found the place, I can't seem to stay there long enough to accomplish my goals. Oh, I am still making the lists - just not checking them off as fast as I would like.
One day, maybe, I can reconnect, but for now, it's just brief moments of energy. Otherwise, it's mostly sadness for my parents, whose lives have been so full of giving and now there's not much left.
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